Sometimes I really don’t like myself.
I wake up in the morning and I don’t like the reflection of the girl I see in the mirror.
Not because I’m having a bad hair day (although that may be the case at times) but because I’m far from the person I want to be.
I have so many great intentions of becoming this “better person”, of becoming more like Jesus, of fulfilling His purposes for my life and I just fall flat on my face.
It’s not that I have a problem with keeping the New Year’s Resolution’s I created more than half a year ago.
I have a problem with keeping the goals I made just yesterday.
I have this constant desire to improve.
I ask God for guidance and then I create my plan of how to.
And it only takes but a few moments to pass before I break them once again.
Before I oversleep that morning prayer time I have set.
Before I respond negatively to a hard situation.
Before I start counting my problems instead of my blessings.
I feel like Paul when he said in Romans 7:18-19 “I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do – this I keep on doing”
That’s me right there.
Always desiring to be good.
And always failing at it.
Always wondering if it’s even worth it for me to try again.
If I will ever reach that point where I will be satisfied with the person that I am.
If I will ever do what I desire instead of just the opposite.
I am tempted to give up and use the excuse that everyone uses “This is just the way I am.”
I might as well not set one more goal because I am bound to fail.
I might as well not get back up one more time because I am bound to fall.
I might as well not give it one more shot, because I am bound to miss.
And the truth is yes, that’s the way I am and that’s the way you are.
Sinful by nature.
Bound to fail.
Likely to fall.
But I have good news for you – when you are Christ’s you no longer live by your sinful nature.
You no longer have an excuse of being “just the way you are” because now with the help of the Holy Spirit you are called to live just the way Jesus is.
I love this quote that I read recently:
“Instead of using ‘I’m human’ as an excuse to walk in the flesh try using ‘I’m saved’ as a reason to walk in the Spirit”
Yes, there will be days you will fail.
There will be days you will not do what you desire.
There will be days you won’t like the person you see in the mirror.
But that’s not unusual because even when you are a believer, even when you have a new, holy nature with Christ you still have an enemy who will do anything he can to make you stumble.
To make you resort to your old ways.
To make you give in to temptations.
Every day you live there is a constant battle between your flesh and your Spirit (Galatians 5:17). Between the holy, selfless person you want to be and the sinful, selfish person your enemy wants you to remain.
There will always be a conflict between what you want to do and what you don’t want to do.
A conflict between the person you are and the person you want to become with Christ.
Not because there is something wrong with you.
But because we live in a sinful world with an enemy that will do everything in his power to keep you right where you’re at.
But don’t be discouraged.
Because we may be sinful by nature, but Christ is holy by nature.
We may be bound to fail, but Christ will always overcome.
We may be likely to fall, but Christ will never fall.
Next time you look in the mirror and you don’t like the person you see, don’t be discouraged about where you’re at.
Don’t make and excuse for staying there either.
But remind yourself that with God’s help today you will be the person He wants you to be.
You will get back up and take that step forward no matter how many times you fall.
You will repent, renew your mind, and walk in the Spirit no matter how many times you fail.
You will fight against the desires of the flesh instead of submit to them once again.
You may not be the person you want to be.
You may have a lot of things to work on.
Many habits to change.
Many goals to set.
But never give up on yourself.
With God’s just like Paul, you can learn to live by His nature, instead of yours.
You can learn to adopt His thoughts for yours.
You can trade in your weakness for His power.
You can let go of your shame and guilt and live by His grace and strength.
You can be that person you want to be…not because you try hard enough, but because of who you have living inside of you.
With Him walking next to you every single day your character, your thoughts, your life will transform to be like His with time.
Today… walk according to the Spirit. Be kind to the person in the mirror. And never give up. God is not finished with you yet! Be blessed! -Anna… ♥
Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. – Galatians 5:24-25