You like to bring back memories of pain long buried away.
You like to predict my future and tell me I don’t have anything to look forward to and that nothing will ever change.
You like to interrupt my day and stop me dead in my tracks from taking one more step.
You like to drag me around in circles down memory lane and keep me stuck in what could have, would have, or should have been.
Yes, you will do anything to destroy the future I’m dreaming about and the day I’m living in.
But today I’m writing you a good-bye letter.
Because there is no room in my heart and in my mind for you to stay.
No time for wallowing around in self-pity and regret.
No need to recount my failures and my mistakes.
No reason for remembering hurt that has long faded away.
You try so hard to remind me of the fragile, broken, and insecure girl I used to be.
You try to drag me down with your old memories of hurts, and rejection, and pain but what you don’t know is that every time you put me down it only gives God a reason to help me back up again.
It only makes me run faster to His Word to remember who I really am.
It only gives me a chance to find strength to stand taller than I ever have.
It only gives me a reason to remember how in the middle of darkness, in the middle of my sin, how faithful and loving God has been.
It only helps me see who I am even clearer, helps me bounce back even higher, and helps me come out bolder than I have ever been.
When you remind me of my past insecurities He just reminds me of how beautiful and precious I am in Him.
When you remind me of how unloved I felt He just brings me to the cross and reminds me of how loved I truly am.
When you remind me of the people who hurt me or judged me He reminds me of the people who have loved me, supported me, and encouraged me every step of the way.
When you remind me of all my failed plans He shows me how faithful He has been in coming through for me in my every time of need.
Every reminder and every thought you place in my mind only brings me back to Him.
The One who has walked me through every step of the past no matter how painful, how exciting, and how challenging it might have been.
The One who promises to walk with me still.
I will take the lessons I learned from you and grow wiser and stronger because of them.
I will live with no regrets, no shame, and no pain about what once has been because it has been those very things that I struggled with the most that have built my faith and developed me into who I am.
So past, you may come as you please.
I don’t mind the interruption because it only reminds me of who I am in God and how far I’ve come since I first began.
Your past can chain you down from reaching for your goals and fulfilling your dreams or it can be the very thing that helps you get back up and keep striving to be all that God has called you to be. I pray that every time you think about your past it brings you back to Christ and helps you see that He has been and will always be with you every step of the way. Be blessed! –Anna… ♥