I planned on giving up on this whole blogging thing last week.
And the week before that.
And probably every week before that one as well.
See when I started blogging I didn’t realize something very important: it isn’t for the faint of heart.
Many exceptional bloggers have one piece of advice they always like to give to new bloggers and it’s this: never check your stats.
And I think this is a good rule to live by not only in blogging world but in life.
Because when I check my stats either two things happen, one, if they’re high I feel like I’m the best writer in the world and God is using me in high and mighty ways to make a difference in someone’s world… but if they’re low then I deem myself worthless to post one more single word that comes to mind.
I start doubting the purpose behind my words and the reason why I write at all.
I start wondering if pouring out my heart on paper is just a waste of my time.
And that’s when I want to quit “once and for all”. (Apparently I’m a terrible quitter) 😉
But I have learned that writing, just like so many other things we do in this world, is in the business of planting.
Planting seeds big or small that will one day bear fruit.
And God calls each one of us to plant seeds in the unique way that He designed us.
A pastor plants seeds every Sunday morning when he preaches about God.
A teacher plants seeds every day when she or he teaches children concepts, ideas, and truths that will help their mind grow.
A singer plants seeds of encouragement, hope, conviction, and joy with the creation of a new song.
I plant seeds through writing on here and through teaching my teens at church.
And there are moments I feel like “Wow Anna, you’re exactly where you need to be right now, fulfilling God’s call upon your life” and other times I feel like “Wow, that was such a disappointment or failure, are you sure you should even be doing this at all?”
And usually those moments come when I don’t like the results that I get.
When I teach a lesson and it seems to fall on deaf ears or when I write a post and only a few people read it.
And I forget that it’s not my job to worry about the results.
It’s my job to just plant the seeds.
Because in most cases results don’t come right away.
And if they do… they are not for me to find worth and glory in anyway.
If I want to truly be used by God then I need to forget about numbers and comments and stats and simply write from the heart.
And it’s your job to do the same.
A pastor doesn’t stop preaching because no one showed up to the altar one Sunday.
A singer doesn’t stop singing because not enough people like their song.
A missionary doesn’t stop ministering to broken people because they don’t run to God on the first day.
A mother doesn’t stop teaching her children because they keep messing up.
A bird doesn’t stop singing because only one person is listening to her song.
A farmer doesn’t stop planting seeds because he don’t see plants growing the next day .
Neither should you.
And neither should I.
What is this life about anyway?
If it’s about me then yes stats and numbers matter.
In that case, I should have quit writing a long time ago.
But if it’s for God then none of it matters.
He will make sure that the right people will read what they need to when they need to.
Just like He’ll make sure the right person shows up to church service when they don’t intend to hear a message that is meant specifically for them.
But regardless of the outcome remember that your heart is always worth sharing.
Whether it comes in the form of a sermon, of a blog post, of a painting, or of a song.
There will be days when you’ll get a hundred likes, comments, and follows. And there will be days you will get no reaction at all.
It’s on those days you must remind yourself of what it’s all about.
And that what God puts on your heart must be shared if a thousand people hear or see it… or just one.
And if you don’t plant a seed in someone else maybe you plant it in the place where it needs to grow the most: your own heart
We are all in a sense spiritual “farmers”.
We plants seeds with our talents, with our voice, with our abilities, and with our heart.
And then it’s up to us to make the most important step of all when we’re done: walk away and let God do the rest of the work.
Because we determine the seeds we plant in the world, but it’s not up to us to decide where they will fall.
Never base your worth, your identity, and God’s call and purpose on your life on numbers, on a response, or on validation from people.
Keep planting those seeds in your corner of the world day after day, keep on sharing your heart, and your words will live on and bless others long after you’re gone.
And just as a reminder to each one of us (especially bloggers) about how we should navigate in the world of sharing words here is an amazing prayer by Ann Voskamp that I hope we will all pray and hold dear to our heart as we remember the purpose behind why we write.
Never stop planting those seeds with God every day. Be blessed! –Anna… ♥