Certainly not publicly.
But then again, I also told myself I’d be married with three kids by now and obviously that’s not working out that well for me. 😉
Of course, I would rather much talk to you over some ice-cream as we watch a sunset on the beach, or at the peak of a mountain that we hiked, or over coffee at a local coffee shop, but for now it will just have to be over a computer screen.
I’m not sure who you are or what is going on in your life right now but there is one thing I am certain of: you are one prayed for man.
You have been on my parents, my grandparents, and my teens prayer list for many years now.
I’m not sure if they are praying for you specifically or just the fact that you exist (but any prayer is good, right?) 😉
Many people come up to me time and time again and ask why I’m still single and I ask that question myself sometime.
I usually make up a great excuse for them like that you are a missionary traveling overseas and our paths just haven’t crossed paths yet, or you are in college getting your doctor’s degree (hope you don’t mind, you’ll have to tell them the real truth when you get here.) 😉
But even though I have spent many Valentine’s Days alone when I’d rather have spent them with you I have never truly been alone a single day in my life.
In fact, as I’ve been waiting for you I have already fallen in love with the man of my dreams. (You have nothing to worry about, I promise).
I always believed my happy ending would come with you, but I realized that it would only come with Him.
Growing up I thought my life was supposed to be a fairy tale (thank you Disney) and Prince Charming would show up at my door, sweep me off my feet, and make my life complete.
But as I’ve been falling in love with God more each year He has been teaching me that the only perfect man who exists in this world is Him.
And He alone will fulfill the deepest desires of my heart and meet my greatest needs.
Don’t worry, I don’t expect you to be a perfect fairy tale version of the Prince Charming I’ve always wished you to be, I don’t expect you to fulfill all of my childish fantasies… but I will expect you to fix my car, pick up your socks, and kill spiders for me. (You can’t get off too easy) 😉
Some people’s love stories are so different and unique, like my sister who married her high school sweetheart whom she met when she was fourteen.
Sometimes I wish that were me.
But even though my five-year plan of having met you years ago has crashed, failed, and burned a long time ago I know I will never regret the wait because the girl you would marry today compared to the girl you would have married five years ago wouldn’t be the same one.
God has been molding me, growing me, working on my heart and mind overtime, and developing me into who He wants to be so much over these past couple of years ago that there would be times I would look in the mirror at my reflection and ask “is this really me?”
I still have a million things to learn, a million more ways to grow, (hopefully this time with you next to me) but these past years God has opened up to me in so many new ways as He’s helped me discover where I belong and what my calling is.
These years may have been spent without you, but they surely haven’t been wasted on watching too many romantic chick flicks, eating ice-cream, and crying myself to sleep (although some days there were exceptions). 😉
And even though this season in my life has been spent growing in Christ, serving in church, earning my college degree, and making fantastic memories with good friends I certainly can’t wait until I have you next to me to conquer our worlds together, to share my heart and life with, and to serve Christ side by side with.
There are so many people I care about in my life that I just can’t wait for you to meet.
Such as my dad, who is full of wisdom about God, life, and everything in between (I promise you, he’s not as strict as he seems).
And the first time you’ll come over for family dinner my mom will throw you a big ol’ Ukrainian feast (and you better come on empty stomach because she will make you try every dish). 😉
You’ll have to come and meet my teens too. They are one fun (and sometimes a little crazy) bunch so get those running shoes ready because they’ll make you chase footballs, basketballs, and soccer balls around with them.
And even though you’ll have your own group of friends I’m excited for you to meet mine because they make every stranger that comes feel like family so you will have absolutely no problem fitting right in.
But before that day comes when you step into in my life I just want to tell you that not only is my grandma, my parents, and my teens praying for you.
I have been and will always be praying for you too.
Yes, there are moments I doubt that you will ever come and I know that singleness can be a gift of its own, but until my desire to share a life with you ceases or God leads me another way, you will be on my heart, on my mind, and in my prayers.
I pray for protection of your heart, for your love, and for your purity.
That you grow stronger, braver, and more like Christ each day.
That God will give you victory over every battle, every storm, and every temptation that comes your way.
That your life will always be rooted in Him.
And that one day when the time is right He will guide your steps to meeting me.
Until then… I will be waiting…