Our planners full of meetings to attend, people to meet, and events to participate in may make us feel like we are doing something worthwhile and important but often times those things that are supposed to be so good are the very things that get us further away from Christ.
We become like Martha, hustling and bustling away in the kitchen, preparing amazing things for our Savior, and yet ignoring Him the whole time.
Lately I have been feeling a lot more like Martha than like Mary.
I don’t remember the last day I’ve had just to Jesus and myself.
I feel like I’m running a marathon race and I can’t stop until I cross the finish line.
Unless I make a conscious effort to take a break I’m going to keep going until the day I die.
And sometimes in the midst of the running… I forget why I’m running in the first place.
I get discouraged and I get off track.
And I don’t even look forward to making it to the finish line.
Sometimes I get scared that if I don’t stop then I will live my life not on purpose, but just to get by.
That I’ll be so busy working in ministry and life for Jesus that I will miss Him completely, just like Mary did.
That in between the meeting I must attend, the Bibles studies I need to go to, the events I need to participate in, the friends I need to catch up with, the lessons I need to prepare, and the blog post’s I need to write I will totally miss God and my whole meaning of life.
It’s been on my heart for quite some time now to have a time of withdrawal, not just for a day, but for a period of time.
A time where like Mary, I will be consumed with simply sitting at the feet of Christ more than anything I do.
That my phone will be put on silent, that my planner will be cast aside, and I will get deeper with Him.
So for this month I want to blog less on here and write more simply in my personal journal to His heart.
I want to read less books and articles, and be consumed with the Word of God.
I want to hang out a little less just for fun, and do things that are meaningful alone with God.
I want to reprioritize, I want to set goals, and I want to get direction for the next steps God wants to take me in life.
I have been feeling for a few months now that I have been standing at a crossroad without understanding where to go next, and I’ve been looking in the mirror knowing that there’s so much more work for God to do in my heart, and I’m honestly a little scared of the unknown and where it will take me.
I’m nervous to be chiseled on the potter’s wheel.
I like my busy schedule and my comfortable life.
But I know it’s time… to press further into Christ, and let go of the familiar with Him.
It’s time to make a conscious effort to press pause on my busyness for a little while.
It’s time to stop hitting the snooze button on my goals and dreams and start pursuing them with Him.
It is alone in the quietness that God speaks the loudest and the clearest, and that’s exactly where I want to be.
In that place where it’s just me and Him.
Where the world fades away slowly and He comes drawing even more near.
Where I will forget my own pursuits and my own desires and I will start running after His.
Where my “to do” list will be forgotten and all I want to do is spend more time with Him.
This will be my time of withdrawal from the world around me and my drawing closer to Him.
I most likely won’t be blogging on here for this month so if you have prayer needs during this time please e-mail me, I would love to keep your needs in my prayers along with mine.
And may you also take some time to withdraw during this time in your life.
To take a getaway with Jesus and remember what life is about.
To seek His will and plan for your life above your own.
To lay your burdens at His feet and leave them there once and for all.
I hope you enjoy the rest of these (hopefully) sunny glorious days!
Be blessed and keep walking faithfully with God! -Anna… ♥
“Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you.” -James 4:8